day 31: a bit about your social life outside of tumblr
Once or twice a week, I go hang out with friends, but more often I stay home. Most of my social life revolves around dancing, which is funny, because I don’t dance. It’s just workshops and events that my friends drag me to participate in that most of my friends happen to be dancers haha. But I might be entering this one dance central competition near us soon. Pretty funny right? I guess that’ll be another way for me to meet new people.
The people in Egypt are under governmental siege. Mubarak regime is banning Facebook, Twitter, and all other popular internet sites Now, the internet are completely blocked in Egypt. Tomorrow the government will block the 3 mobile phone network will be completely blocked.
And there is news that even the phone landlines will be cut tomorrow, to prevent any news agency from following what will happen.
Suez city is already under siege now. The government cut the water supply and electricity, people, including, children and elderly are suffering there now. The patients in hospitals cannot get urgent medical care. The injured protesters are lying in the streets and the riot police are preventing people from helping them. The families of the killed protesters cannot get the bodies of their sons to bury them. This picture is the same in north Saini (El-Sheikh zoyad city) and in western Egypt (Al-salom). The riot police is cracking down on protesters in Ismailia, Alexandria, Fayoum, Shbin Elkoum, and Cairo, the capital, in many neighborhoods across the city.
The government is preparing to crackdown on the protesters in all Egyptian cities. They are using tear gas bombs, rubber and plastic pullets, chemicals like dilutes mustard gas against protesters. Several protesters today have been killed when the armored vehicles of the riot police hit them. Officials in plain clothes carrying blades and knives used to intimidate protesters. Thugs deployed by the Egyptian Ministry of Interior are roaming the streets of Cairo, setting fire on car-wheels as means of black propaganda to demonize protesters and justify police beatings and state torture
All this has been taken place over the past three days during the peaceful demonstrations in Cairo and other cities. Now, with the suspicious silence of the local media and the lack of coverage from the international media, Mubarak and his gang are blocking all the channels that can tell the world about what is happening.
People who call for their freedom need your support and help. Will you give them a hand?
The activists are flooding the net (youtube and other sites) with thousands of pictures and videos showing the riot police firing on armless people. The police started to use ammunition against protesters. 15-year old girl has been injured and another 25 year old man has been shot in the mouth. While nothing of these has appeared in the media, there is more to happen tomorrow. Will you keep silent? Will you keep your mouth shut while seeing all these cruelty and inhumane actions?
We don’t ask for much, just broadcast what is happening
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This is fucking terrifying. Why is no one helping them.
This is real scary. Please please reblog.
This should be heard across the world. I don’t think it’s necessary at all of what they’re doing.
day 29: a date you’d love for someone to take you on
Haha, my friend made a post about this. A typical setting for me is that we get burgers and just talk and chill in the car. Make awkward moments and remember them for the rest of our lives. Of course, I don’t know what a real date is. The last real date I had was in 2009.
I’ll follow you back…is such a conceited statement. When you state something like that, people will like that post, but then the way they write will start to change. Let’s say you do find someone worthy of your attention, but that person is only writing that way just for that purpose..your attention. You’re not reading what is actually on their mind. You’re reading a piece of writing that is solely for an individuals mind, but not their own. Does it make you feel good that their writing has changed when they probably don’t even realize it? It’s alright though because you’re not the only well-known blogger out there with this conceited mindset. These aren’t thoughts written down, they’re thoughts dependent on another person’s expectations.
When I’m being used. Recently, my friend and I had nothing to do over the weekend and we wanted to eat at Sushi Kaiten. When we got there, a group of our friends were already eating there. The main guy who hosted the group walked up to us looking guilty and asked if we wanted to hang out. We declined and left the place. The main guy calls me back and asks if I’m still there and once again makes the offer of chilling. I decline, but then he includes, “Yo, but I need a ride home”. I got pissed off and hanged up.
These are both my non-related brothers Chris and Andrew. During and after our friendship, they changed a lot. Andrew, went from this gang banging kid to this humble guy who changed because of friends, relationships, and other benefactors. He used to be a kid who constantly did terrible things, but now I see a kid who completely burned off his entire past of being a rebel. He completely talks in a formal manner and is an inspiring dancer that wants to specialize in popping, locking, wacking, and other styles.
Chris here is also a dancer, but wants to specialize in the art of popping such as Andrew. He recently entered a competition for Seattle’s Best Talent and got 1st place in the 1st round. He later realized how rigged it was and dropped from the competition when it came to the final round. After meeting Andrew and myself, he all of a sudden changed so much more and gained perspectives he never saw himself. He’s currently a straight A student and wants to take every opportunity that is thrown at him.
day 25: a friend you have lost that you’re better off without/one you wish you had back
Cj Choupe. A friend that came into my life only to walk away in the end. I’m glad he came in to my life to teach a lesson he didn’t know about. He probably doesn’t know that I stopped being a loner after he talked to me. He probably doesn’t know that I gained so many different socializing skills with just that one encounter with him. He doesn’t know all the great people I’ve decided to socialize with because of him. I think I am better off with out him because I can stand on my own now and possibly give the same hope to others.
I love him a lot. He’s someone that nobody can replace. He’s there for me as much as I am for him haha. I don’t get to talk to him as much anymore, but every time we converse, it’s almost like we never stopped talking before hand. My best friend in the whole world!
This guy…this stump. He’s a really chill guy. We need to smooth out some cracks when we hang out. He thinks he can embarrass me in public, but I can do much worst then when we last hanged out haha. He walks around a lot and can’t stay in one place…I think that’s why he is one of the favorites. He’s a dancer, so I guess he has to move some how.
This guy is just..I don’t know. He has really reasonable posts and I like them a lot. The way his perspective differ’s from every one elses is pretty unique. You probably won’t see that word used on here that much. Maybe just this once. His philosophical thinking is what makes him a favorite.
He get’s super embarrassed when I tell him “G’night and have fun watching porn and studying at the same time!”haha. He’s funny to talk to. He always greets me with an Aloha through aim, which I don’t understand why. There’s probably much more to learn about him, so this is it for this entry.
I’m super thankful for my sister and how open she is with her sexual orientation, just as I will soon.. She’s always been there for me like when I asked for my garage opener back this morning haha. She stole it from my car and I screamed at her for that, but I still love her.
6. Mailan Thach
Person I tell everything to. She doesn’t have a tumblr, but she knows how important she is in my life right now. She shrugged her shoulders when I told her about my orientation haha.
Oh man..this girl has some really creative writing pieces. I’m talking about her logical point of view. I like the way she thinks. I don’t know her real name…she’s mysterious
The way he writes his perspectives amuses me. I love the way he writes and I always enjoy the site he runs, which is called wewritewespeak. I haven’t submitted anything really, but I plan to soon.
I thought this dude was filipino..man, I was so wrong. I won’t tell anybody what ethnicity he is because it would throw you off. He’s a real chill guy and I want to get to know him more.
10. Steven Casner
"Dude" hahaha. He hates it when I call him that. I don’t know why yet. Maybe he’ll tell me tonight. I’ve just gotten to know this guy and we’re already doing stupid shit. Singing, dancing(no details), and faces I guess. He seems really cool.
day 23: a month/year of your life when you were happiest and why
I couldn’t believe that I was graduating. I did so bad in high school because I wasn’t expressive enough with myself until my sophomore year. That’s when I tried harder, but not hard enough. But I’m glad where it got me. If I did really well in school, I’d probably would not make a tumblr and get to meet all these great people.
And there are several thoughts that I know go on through your mind and it’s about time I tell you what they are. From my perspective, when I see a person with a variety of good writing pieces, I get this cocky impression like I’m not good enough to be in their presence. But I don’t give up hope because I want to get to know them, so I’ll message them. A good majority of these people will have that conceited attitude, so don’t be surprised when you don’t get some thing answered. They’re too good for you, but they won’t admit it.
"How come all my anonymous won’t just reveal themselves to me?"
You’ll never get an answer back when you reveal yourself. You’ll just get ignored. I find that to be amusing since this is another method to fish for more compliments or a way to get more followers. When you state something like that up there, it looks pathetic. I don’t know how you guys can do this to people who might look up to you in a way, but alright. If there’s an opportunity of getting to know a friend, then you should be appreciative of that. You only have so much time left in the world and your attitude or your writings shouldn’t be an excuse for that.
I’ve been treated the same way. From the day I walked into elementary to my sophomore year of high school. No one would believe me, but I was a complete loner from elementary to high school, until one day a kid came up to me and became my friend. From that day forward, I never left anybody out of a group. I always had to talk to that one person who didn’t know how to socialize. That one person who reminded me of myself was going to be my friend whether they liked it or not. And they were thankful for that because I helped change their views of certain people.
So, when you go to my page, don’t label me with conceited, too good for you, or any other phrases or words. I will answer questions whether they’re anonymous or not. I’m not the type to leave anybody hanging because I used to be in that position. I know a couple few who also have this mindset, but that post will wait some other day.
I’ve been thinking about this ever since I needed my birth certificate to take my drivers test. One day, we couldn’t find the files for my recorded birth, so we had to head down to Olympia to get a copy. To my utter amazement, we had to make one since my files weren’t at the hospital I was born at. No matter how hard they searched, they just couldn’t find that I was born at the hospital that my mom gave birth to me at. From that point on, I always give my parents this weird look when ever they’re not facing me. Maybe I’m just over thinking this and they really are my parents, but there are other possibilities. There have been cases where kids have been accidentally switched at birth and neither the kid or parents knows about it. I don’t know, I must be crazy to think this haha. Just a thought.
Intelligence can be defined in a number ways, but I usually judge it depending on the different settings we hang out at. I want to see how well you handle impression management around different people and different hangouts. How you say things and how you act around different settings will help me determine what your knowledge actually revolves around. I don’t judge intelligence right away. Give it a couple months and thats when I usually start to know what your brain is like.
day 21: everything you wish for in a significant other
If I said that I wanted you to be yourself, I guess that wouldn’t be enough. You got to be as awkward as me…I’m not playing around when I say that. When we goof around and then there’s that complete silence, you have to be able to break the silence with something that comes right off the top of your head. What ever pops up, just say it. If you’re thinking about yugioh, pokemon, or even porn, just let it out. Or else I’ll start singing in public and try to embarrass you when you’re with me…I’ve done it before. You have to be open about yourself. I need someone really expressive and is able to share that with me. Don’t tell me you’re expressive, show me you’re expressive and we’ll see where it goes.
If you can experiment with your surroundings as if no one is watching, then that’s a huge plus for me. Let’s walk like no other and just be ourselves. Basically, someone that can think for themselves…truly think for themselves is what I like.
But every time I get a new follower, I have this thing about “posting when you feel like it”. So, I’ll check on who ever is following me and I see how they post for a number of days..haha. I feel like I just set the stalker vibe for who ever is reading this right now. I don’t know if that’s just me, but I do it to every one who starts following and I usually question why they are. Majority of the time I know the reason due to certain people. I’ll kill him for that when I go to California this summer..probably. Now that you know, don’t you feel weird that I’m stalking your page at this very moment?
As of now, the only thing that makes someone beautiful is the way they think differently from the rest of society. For example, if you can put yourself in someone elses shoes and understand their standpoint, I think that’s really beautiful. Talking to them and getting to know their perspective as well as changing your own at the same time is something I cherish a lot. But if all you do is complain about someone, but not question their actions or words, then you’re dropped basically. You’re just another number amongst every one else in the crowd.
I love my family. I can’t argue or complain about them anymore ‘cause there’s nothing to complain about. I love my little brother’s the most and I stay home most of the time to watch over them. We’re like brother bears haha. It’s sad that I’ll be leaving them next quarter, but I’ll always be there for them.
day 18: why you made your blog, why you still have it
At first, I just wanted to jot down everything I was feeling about everyday, then I learned about reblogs..stupid reblogs haha. I used to reblog every single day until I found out how stupid it was since I wasn’t posting anything relevant to my life. Then the posting started and I eventually stopped reblogging entirely. I’m mostly here just for myself. If anything, I don’t really want followers..haha.
People are intimidated when they approach him and never give out a lending hand to show they care. He wants to show how sad he is when this happens, but his facial expression never shows. He walks off from incidents like these and continues on even when it’s raining. The rain is constantly pitter pattering on him, but he doesn’t care because it doesn’t show. With his hands in his pockets, he keeps on walking and doesn’t know when to stop. He wants to let everything out, but doesn’t know how. His mind is made up and decides that he will walk for ever. As the walking continues on, he bumps into a little girl bobbing her head back and forth while kneeling on the ground. With her arm covering her face, he finds out that she’s crying over a teddy bear that has an open tear on it’s side. He picks up the bear and quietly fixes its side next to her. Spending only a few minutes fixing up her toy, he finally finishes and hands her, her beloved friend. It brought him joy when he saw the bright smile that she had given him, but couldn’t give that smile back. The little girl noticed this and took both her index fingers and touched points on his face where the smile would have been if he made one.
Gradually, the smile on his face started to appear and didn’t notice it until they both started laughing. He held his face in the palm of his hands and felt the creases where his smile was created. He couldn’t believe what had happened and started to cry. When all the features of his face started forming, he ran his hand down his face and could feel his eyes, nose, mouth, and everything else that came with it. He started to cry even more heavily and hugged the little girl for helping him. Wiping away his tears of happiness, he stood up and gave her his thanks. From that day forward, he smiles every where he goes and helps those in need when they need it.
I have a feeling that this question shouldn’t be answered yet. That one idol drives me hard to make the best of my life. And no, it’s not who you think it is. Someday, I’ll be working with my idol to do a couple projects, but until then, we’re just doing our own thing.
My friend Jordan wanted details about this big accomplishment I’m going to be making next quarter, which I should of done two years ago. Although, going to Green River CC was a good experience. Next quarter, I’ll be moving down to Lynnwood with my aunty so that I can go learn a program on Catiav5. I’ll be learning this program for about 2 quarters at Everett CC so I’ll be finished by the time I turn 21. I’m glad that I finally realized what I’m going to do with my life, so I’m a bit excited. The starting pay for the company I’ll be working for is really good and they’ll pay for my schooling if I go back again.
The Con of living in Lynnwood is that I’ll have to make a commute if I want to hang out with my friends back in Kent. All my friends live in Kent and Tukwila, so it’s sort of sad, but I’ll bear with it.
The Pro of it is that I’ll be closer to Seattle and I’ll be able to hang out with people I haven’t seen awhile.
The opportunity I’ll be getting is big, but I’ll accomplish it.
I’m going to name people in order that I trust since I don’t want to name one.
@jaymonstar- First person I came out to about my sexuality and afterwards I became more comfortable with it, which wasn’t too long ago. I don’t know, it’s weird because I haven’t met this guy yet, but I will soon after I complete this one goal.
@jaygoesrawr- 2nd person I came out to about this. He explained another type of sexuality I might be experiencing, which is pansexuality, but I don’t think I am that haha.
Mailan Thach- The person who never gave a reaction when I told her about this too. She just shrugged her shoulders and replied with an “Ok”. No facial expression or anything.
I talked about trust in relation to sexuality because these are the only three I trust. They’re good people and I’m glad I met them.
I don’t get how you guys can complain so much about the little things in your lives. It’s unbearable for me to read and it can get quite annoying. Especially here on the internet where you’re privileged to say what ever you want. And when I read stupid little things like people who are or aren’t tumblr famous, it get’s me annoyed because you should be appreciating what you have now instead of complaining about what you need, which probably doesn’t even matter. No one here should even afford to complain besides people around the world who have the right to complain. Those people who have the right to complain sleep on rocks, use their loved ones for pillows, and dig through the garbage for food. From little kids to adults, they suffer a considerable amount of pain. They live in 3rd world countries and do most of us think twice about sending food or money for support?
No. Because we’re cold- blooded and we waste our time talking about how our lives are so terrible, and we cry because we can’t get the things we want or not enough people are listening to your voice. So stop complaining whether it be socially or economically, because other people have it tons worst then you. You cry because you can’t find love or you can’t get what you want. Others can’t cry anymore because their dry tear ducts can’t bear anymore sadness so they just live with what they have. This is why I can’t complain about anything. This is why I don’t rant about anything on my life besides the silly complaints I hear from people.
day 14: write about something you believe in, anything at all
I believe that I’m here now and I’m not going to go anywhere until I wake up. And when I wake up, I’ll have to wake up again to different realities that present themselves to me. I believe in reincarnation and that most of us have to go through these stages to experience the pros and cons of life.
This is my family right here. Did the exact same dance with them two years ago, but I think they pulled it off better this year then before. In the photo, filipino club is doing the pamela dance. At first every one was nervous, but I found a way of breaking the ice with all them when it came to performing their set 2 years ago. All I had to do was grind on and around the chair to Take it down by Chris Brown haha. After that, every one felt it couldn’t get as embarrassing as that, so we all felt comfortable performing on stage.
I’ll you right now that these girls are freaking amazing with their indian set. They blew everyone’s minds away and had a majority of the crowd give them a standing ovation afterwards. The funny thing about the indian set is that indians and filipinos dance together in this one haha. I think it’s cool and it’s pretty common that ethnicities at our school join different clubs.
Last, but not least, the Haka dance. It wasn’t as full of rage as I wanted it to be. The last Haka dance I saw were a bunch of Samoans who had scarred themselves after performing their set. These guys yelled and choreographed each segment pretty well, but it wasn’t enough for me to get goosebumps. These guys danced well though. I give them their props.
Through this, I realized a few things. One, I realized how easily I could go from one task to the next. And two, If I could forget about the first task, I could easily forget about anybody in a second. Scary thought, but logical enough for me. Night everyone.
I’ve seen this word being thrown around a lot lately. And it’s usually used loosely. I don’t get how people can say something is fake so easily, especially towards a form of expression that individuals put their hearts into. A new season of ABDC is coming up you guys and I know what people are going to say.
"It’s fake and rigged"
"It isn’t as real as sytycd or blah blah blah"
The only thing I could say that isn’t real on the show is the environment and stage settings since the crews can’t control that themselves. They can’t fully extend the potential they have that they want to show to the audience. That was just an example I wanted to give out since I know gossip is going to be spread around about it. To make it easier said, it’d be best to put yourselves in their shoes for a bit and see how hard it is to pull off what they do on stage.
I’ve talked about this before except it was titled “Every Word Counts”. And I can’t stress it enough that every voice does count. Whether it be logical or illogical, that voice has to count because you will never know the next time you may hear it. Having a voice is such an amazing privilege and many waste it complaining about their lives or what drama they’re going through. When I hang out with friends, I always try and talk about the good things in life and move away from subjects that may keep us down. Every one has a subtle difference in their voices compared to others, so embrace it while you still can and make the best of it. You could change someones life or help the world become a better place. You never know what your voice can do, so while you’re still living, discover your voice.
day 10: what you think when you hear the words “be yourself”
You can only be yourself at home. You can’t be yourself online or in public because we set up different impressions everywhere outside our house. Do I act like myself when I’m typing up a response to a 365 question like this? I don’t know really. Maybe I am or maybe I’m not.
Every day when I wake up, I think about those who’re important to me and why they’re in my lives now. I have the continuos thoughts of who I might lose and what I can gain from that. I talk about loss because it’s really easy for that to happen. Some losses are significant and some take a drastic toll on your lifestyle. I tell myself every morning that this or that person aren’t important anymore due to an event that might have occurred. And when those words come out of my mouth, I break down a little. When I had to come to the realization that some of our family members weren’t going to be there for us anymore, I broke down even more. Often, I’d just sit there in my room and let it all out in one sitting because it was better then cutting yourself or taking it out on someone. At one point, I just cried and let it all fall down to the floor for a long while. This is probably a first for me to write a post like this and publish it. I remember writing a post like this everyday, but then I would cancel it because I was afraid of letting people see that side of me. This writing is just for myself and I pulled it out to post on here.