Attention.
johnyr:
One thing that really gets to me is attention. Some crave it more than others while it comes naturally for a certain few. Like how you’re with a group of friends and they’re just talking and everyone’s focused on them with whatever they say or do. On the other hand you talk out of hand or just say a little comment, and it goes by unacknowledged. Nobody seems to even notice and just continues on with what they were previously doing. Feeling sort of stupid or a bit awkward after and not wanting to say anything more. It sucks, I mean it’s not that I want to totally stand out or want the lime light. I am who I am and I don’t want to be anything that I’m not just get peoples attention. Yet I don’t want to walk around with people passing me by like a ghost or being just a nobody. I feel like very few people now a days have the time to stop and just listen or just give you some of their time. It’s like if you’re not appealing to them in the first few minutes or if it doesn’t concern them, they’re not interested. No, not all the things I have to say is important or interesting. Just the fact that you took time out of your way to hear me out. We don’t have to have a full on conversation. I guess I’m just trying to say I think we all deserve to be heard out. And what really sucks the most is when you’re talking to someone you really care about. How you pay attention to the smallest of details and remember things that don’t seem too significant. Then you ask them about this or what they think about that. They just seem so oblivious to it all. Sometimes asking you if you can repeat what you just said a few minutes ago, while you remembered the whole conversation. In your head, you’re just like “oh, never mind” or “it was nothing important” and move on. Wishing they’d noticed or remember more because at one point we all get tired. Putting in effort yet nothing comes out. Sadly, that’s how it works sometimes even if you give it your all. It’d just be nice to have someone there for you who makes you feel wanted or someone that doesn’t make you feel so unnoticed. What’s even more sad is that some of these people don’t even know how they make you feel. Moving along with their lives not knowing how much of an impact they occasionally have on you. I don’t even know on what I should do or if I should just stay quiet because maybe at times it’s better off being unnoticed. I just don’t want to go through life feeling like a nobody. Especially with the ones I care about most who see me as if everything’s fine while inside it’s the complete opposite. It’s like why must I have to climb a 100 mountains to get to you, while all you have to do is smile to get to me. But to those who take the time and actually acknowledge whatever it is I have to say or do, thanks. It’s people like you, even if you aren’t too interested, who make me feel better and knowing that someone out there cares.
I wanted to add on to this with my own input as well. This also effects people when they don’t even realize that they want attention. Although they feel that they don’t need it, they show it through their actions as a hint for the person to notice them. A good example would be here on tumblr, where if you haven’t talked to someone for quite a while, they’ll post up a small brief paragraph or quote that’s probably directed towards you. A lot of people on here do this mostly sub consciously and won’t realize it until the person they’re trying to get a hold of tells them about it. So, this can be sort of a small comparison when @johnyr was talking about how a group friends would listen to this one person, and would single out everyone in the group who wanted to voice their own opinions. Overall, I totally agree with where @johnyr input comes from and how everyone’s voice should be sought out instead of being ignored. You never know how important someone’s opinion can be until it’s gone.
