day 31: a bit about your social life outside of tumblr
Once or twice a week, I go hang out with friends, but more often I stay home. Most of my social life revolves around dancing, which is funny, because I don’t dance. It’s just workshops and events that my friends drag me to participate in that most of my friends happen to be dancers haha. But I might be entering this one dance central competition near us soon. Pretty funny right? I guess that’ll be another way for me to meet new people.
-I used to dance a lot with friends back then in highschool. Not as much now. Nowadays, I just read and go out and make new friends every month
I have 130 followers. 80 of them I follow have become friends. I felt the need to tell you guys this, since the majority of you think I have over 1k or something. In all honesty, what matters more is how many people I’m able to share an affinity with, and these 80 I follow, are people who don’t dissumulate themselves when talking with me. And what that means, is that they don’t conceal their feelings or troubles, because I’m open for any type of discussion. It’s almost as if a bulwark is set up for every conversation I have with you all. Nothing really breaks through. And that’s why I think you guys assume my count to be high. Realistically… follower count doesn’t matter as much as actually talking to those who have an interest in your life. You never know what you’ll find unless you take that risk of letting someone show you a whole new world. And I’m glad I could take that risk with the lot of you.
day 29: a date you’d love for someone to take you on
Haha, my friend made a post about this. A typical setting for me is that we get burgers and just talk and chill in the car. Make awkward moments and remember them for the rest of our lives. Of course, I don’t know what a real date is. The last real date I had was in 2009.
When I’m being used. Recently, my friend and I had nothing to do over the weekend and we wanted to eat at Sushi Kaiten. When we got there, a group of our friends were already eating there. The main guy who hosted the group walked up to us looking guilty and asked if we wanted to hang out. We declined and left the place. The main guy calls me back and asks if I’m still there and once again makes the offer of chilling. I decline, but then he includes, “Yo, but I need a ride home”. I got pissed off and hanged up.
-wow, i was mad when this happened. I rarely get mad now Haha.
People follow you because you are an inspiration to some, you're cute to others, you're have interesting and/or personal posts that they can relate to, or a combination of all of those. I follow you because I've always had good thoughts about you, the things i just listed, and I love you :]. I'll miss you buddy <3. Don't stay away too long!
aww, i’ll miss you more jordan! and i wont be away for too long. and just so you know, i’ll be seeing you tomorrow haha. dont forget that.
I just wanted to say thanks for your comments because I really do appreciate it. Most of you who have followed me since the beginning have seen drastic changes in my well being. You’ve probably even noticed that I’m less adament about my own opinions now, then I was previously before this gradual change within took place. It seems very surreal because I know I was ignorant last year and I’m slowly gaining insight from all the reading I indulge myself in. I never thought I could change this much and now I feel like I could do more then what I’m capable of. And if it wasn’t for the affinity I share with a majority of you, I probably wouldn’t progress as much as I thought I would. I really feel as though you guys helped me evolve into a person that has developed genuine affectations for different types of individuals. And I can say that I’m definitely thankful for that. For current friends and friendships that will soon be found, I hope you all continue to enjoy my blog.
day 25: a friend you have lost that you’re better off without/one you wish you had back
Cj Choupe. A friend that came into my life only to walk away in the end. I’m glad he came in to my life to teach a lesson he didn’t know about. He probably doesn’t know that I stopped being a loner after he talked to me. He probably doesn’t know that I gained so many different socializing skills with just that one encounter with him. He doesn’t know all the great people I’ve decided to socialize with because of him. I think I am better off with out him because I can stand on my own now and possibly give the same hope to others.
Intelligence can be defined in a number ways, but I usually judge it depending on the different settings we hang out at. I want to see how well you handle impression management around different people and different hangouts. How you say things and how you act around different settings will help me determine what your knowledge actually revolves around. I don’t judge intelligence right away. Give it a couple months and thats when I usually start to know what your brain is like.
I sound pretty ignorant here to be honest. Intelligent can’t be defined in a number a ways, but in an unlimited number of possibilities. Different settings don’t determine intelligence. Impression management won’t determine my view of you, since I look for one on one conversations. What you say and how you say it determines personality, not intelligence. I’d rather not judge intelligence. I think was full of myself last year, this day when I wrote this post.
Other people will see in your ex what you couldn’t see before. So there’s no reason you should go on ruining a relationship because of how bad they may have mistreated you. Maybe they’ll be of higher importance to that person then you could ever imagine and you don’t even realize what you’re about to wreck. Even if you could see all the bad in that person, maybe the next person could help embed some good in their body, mind, and soul. It all ties down to a quote I once heard: “A new world is born for every person that walks into your life”
day 21: everything you wish for in a significant other
If I said that I wanted you to be yourself, I guess that wouldn’t be enough. You got to be as awkward as me…I’m not playing around when I say that. When we goof around and then there’s that complete silence, you have to be able to break the silence with something that comes right off the top of your head. What ever pops up, just say it. If you’re thinking about yugioh, pokemon, or even porn, just let it out. Or else I’ll start singing in public and try to embarrass you when you’re with me…I’ve done it before. You have to be open about yourself. I need someone really expressive and is able to share that with me. Don’t tell me you’re expressive, show me you’re expressive and we’ll see where it goes.
If you can experiment with your surroundings as if no one is watching, then that’s a huge plus for me. Let’s walk like no other and just be ourselves. Basically, someone that can think for themselves…truly think for themselves is what I like.
Haha, this is what I’m like with friends. In reality, I just want him to have an open mind. Accept my friends for who they are because I got a variety of them. If you don’t like my friends because of a certain aspect about them like the way they dress or the way they talk, then you’re telling me a thing or two about yourself. For one, it tells me what kind of friends reflect your surrounding. And two, it tells me what kind of people you like to hang around with. For example, my cousin is really flamboyant and that’s natural for me. And if he’s judged right on the spot ‘cause of that, then that’s a turnoff for me.
To answer this, he must truly have an open mind to the life that surrounds him. But if he’s in the developing stage towards that, then maybe we could work on that together.
“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
As of now, the only thing that makes someone beautiful is the way they think differently from the rest of society. For example, if you can put yourself in someone elses shoes and understand their standpoint, I think that’s really beautiful. Talking to them and getting to know their perspective as well as changing your own at the same time is something I cherish a lot. But if all you do is complain about someone, but not question their actions or words, then you’re dropped basically. You’re just another number amongst every one else in the crowd.
I agree with everything I’ve said in here except for what I put in bolded words. To put something in extra, I think that the fact that you were born a human is something extraordinary. That means you were given a job here on Earth, since the human mind is very vast and plentiful, depending on how you use it. Either you conform with the rest of society or do something unconventional is totally up to you, but regardless, if you’re here now, reading this, then you must be of some vast importance to the role you play in life currently.
I love my family. I can’t argue or complain about them anymore ‘cause there’s nothing to complain about. I love my little brother’s the most and I stay home most of the time to watch over them. We’re like brother bears haha. It’s sad that I’ll be leaving them next quarter, but I’ll always be there for them.
My parents love me, but my dad never looks at me the same way ever since I came out to everyone. The siblings love me regardless. Our family is slowly splitting apart, which I don’t really mind. It’s part of life and you got to learn why it’s like that.
Here’s a tip for the do-it-yourself crowd: Go to your computer’s Start menu, and either go to “run” or just search for “cmd.” Open it up, and type in “ping [website address],”
Once you have the IP for a website, all you really need to do is enter it like you would a normal URL nd hit enter/press go. Typing in “22.214.171.124” should bring you to the front page of AO3, for example, just as typing “126.96.36.199/dashboard” should bring you straight to your Tumblr dashboard. Since we’re obviously bracing for the worst case scenario which would involve you not being able to access the internet regularly, you should, save this list.
Dear Tumblr-ers, -ites, ettes, and whatever other things you may prefer,
Please reblog the crap out of this. Add to it if you feel there is stuff necessary but missing.
I’ve told you guys how my mental state always changes when I read a book, but now I must tell you what happens when my spirit is involved. In every book I read, I feel like I leave a part of my spirit in that book, which is why I always bring a backpack full of books with me everywhere I go. I’m very hesitant when I let people borrow my books, because they not only read into the pages, but they also read into my spirit. I build very strong connections within the pages I learn from. The knowledge I gain from these pages not only helps me mentally, but they also help build this strong heart I have now. And these aren’t normal reads you would find in the hands of an average person. No, they’re much more then that.
If I ever… ever give you one of my books, then I must deeply care about you as an individual. It means I was willing to lend you a part of my spirit; a spirit that has changed and ever blossomed into the next stages of realization.
day 18: why you made your blog, why you still have it
At first, I just wanted to jot down everything I was feeling about everyday, then I learned about reblogs..stupid reblogs haha. I used to reblog every single day until I found out how stupid it was since I wasn’t posting anything relevant to my life. Then the posting started and I eventually stopped reblogging entirely. I’m mostly here just for myself. If anything, I don’t really want followers..haha.
Looking at this, I was a bit ignorant at the time. It’s your blog, do whatever you want. If someone calls you a reblogger or an “original” blogger, push their words aside, because what you do with it matters more. I made my blog because I wanted people to see different sides of myself. And the side that you see in the post above this one doesn’t exist anymore.
I have a feeling that this question shouldn’t be answered yet. That one idol drives me hard to make the best of my life. And no, it’s not who you think it is. Someday, I’ll be working with my idol to do a couple projects, but until then, we’re just doing our own thing.
I actually don’t know who I was talking about. But right now, my idol is one of my tumblr crushes, because of their drive in life.