Took a crap 4 times in the house, and once in the car. Welcome to the family.
Day 23: Do you resort to liquor, narcotics or cigarettes to “quiet your nerves”? If so, why do you not try willpower instead?
When I’m in the need of relieving some stress, I drink a little bit and smoke some hookah. That’s what I’ve done recently compared to back then when I could barely hold myself up. I like using this method to quiet my nerves, even though in the eyes of others it could be destructive. I like using hookah with the leisure time in reading books as well.
Willpower, why don’t I try that instead? I have used my own willpower numerous times to calm my nerves down. It’s easy to do that, but trying different methods are fun too. I know I can control myself in certain situations.
Day 22: How many preventable disturbances annoy you, and why do you tolerate them?
I actually don’t have any disturbances. I put myself into action so much, that I don’t have any leisurely time to think about them.. if I had any disturbances that is haha.
day 150: how is your heart lately
My heart has been beating pretty good lately =]
My heart is functioning well. I like where it is at right now.
day 149: would you rather love one person or have many short relationships
I’d rather love one person. I’ve been in a few short relationships, but they never go anywhere haha
I would rather love someone, but I have a certain process for that. For myself to know and for others to find out.
Day 21: Do you neglect internal bathing until autointoxication makes you ill tempered and irritable?
Internal bathing… I think self realizations and development is what this question refers to. My internal bathing is not as strong, but it’s consistent because I read the same books everyday. Applying what I read would greatly increase that, but I’ve only followed few of the many principles I study. Over time, it will get better, but for now, I’m content with where I stand in stance to internal bathing.
To be honest, I don’t like revealing my preferences to anybody, ‘cause I know how much a person can change based on a person’s perception of those standards. It may be cute and all to see a person put in effort to making that change so that they fit that standard to whom they like, but it’s just not what I like seeing. People are in a constant change of realities, but the only reality you should be concerned about is the one that fits you. The one that makes you who you are in the unconventional sense. When I meet someone who doesn’t want to conform, it peaks an interest as to how they formulated themselves that way. I do have preferences, but finding a person who is like that without revealing that information is rare.